Just a few days until Christmas

and I am feeling really overwhelmed. I tried making a list of what I still have to do but it doesn't seem that bad. Jim and the boys are going to take care of a little more wrapping, then I will have a few of their things after they go to bed. They are also going to make a few cookies for Santa. I have to make a quick trip to Wally world on the way home from work and voila, we are ready to go. What am I missing and why do I feel this way? It's like I am being crushed by the pressure of everything going on in my life.
I do know that I am going down to 20 hours after the new year. It will be nice having days off, but I will miss the money. I am also going to miss Jim. He will basically be gone dawn to dusk Monday and Wednesday, and plus part of Thursday and 9-5ish on Friday. My 20 hours will probably be opposite of his, so we will have more time away from each other than ever. It's going to be new for us.

Rule #1, never shoot at girls.

My boys got their first ever Nerf guns today. They are just small ones with the little suction cup at the end. The boys are so cute running around acting like little secret agents. I told them the #1 rule of Guns is never shoot at girls. Jim added not shooting anyone in the face. The boys asked if they are aloud to shoot the baby. I made him fair game. He's the youngest of three boys, he has to toughen up some time right? I am sure this is just one of many "boy things" that are going to come into our house now that they are school aged. They grow so fast.

Falling into place.

We are finally starting to get the hang of me working and the boys being home with Marge and Jim. For the first 2 weeks of my new job, the stomach flu ran through the entire house. We are finally all feeling better from all of that.
Last week, one of my husband's half brothers died. It was awkward and sad, because he wasn't someone we were close to. Jim and I went to the calling hours and I got to meet members of his family that I hadn't been able to meet before. They all seemed very nice.
Landon has stopped nursing which is kind of sad for me. It's a little hard knowing that my last baby isn't a baby anymore. So he nursed in the middle of the night a few nights about and just a little today because we both kind of forgot that we had stopped. I know my awesome nursing boobs are going to be gone any day.
Work is going great. We are finally are talking to women and I feel like we are making a difference. I just a little worried that I will get to attached to these girls.

What a week,

It is snowing like crazy out there! I hope it sticks around until Christmas. With the new job, I just wish things would be "normal" and on a normal schedule so we could all get used to me working, Marge watching the boys, and all that goes with it.
Today, the boys were on a snow day. We are getting snow right now at about an inch an hour. It looks like there may be another snow day tomorrow. It doesn't look like the snow is slowing any time soon. Luckily, Jim was able to stay home with the boys in the morning and only had to go to his evening class.
So, we had an expensive select comfort mattress. It basically has air chambers in it instead of springs. Well, my side had been leaking air and I was laying on no air by morning. Jim tried to fix it and it got worse. Jim and Nathan spend there morning downgrading us to queen sized mattress. I really like it, I just hope Jim doesn't push me off! We are used to so much more space. I had been wanting a new bed for a while though, so I am pretty happy to get one.
Our Dryer isn't working either. Luckily, it's still under warranty. They will be coming on Wednesday to fix it. In the mean time, the clothes are piling up.
I will go on about it more later.

New Job.

In February, I was contacted about a job for a breastfeeding support person. At the time, I was under the impression I would get a cell phone and if people had questions, they would call and I would do my best to answer. It was months before I heard about it again.
In probably May, I got a letter telling me about the peer helper program at WIC and inviting me to a group informational interview. So in Julyish, I went to the interview with about 13 other woman. I felt so good about it, and I really thought I had nailed it. I told my husband that I had gotten it for sure. I was confident and friendly. The director came up to me before we all left and got my name. A lot of time went by and just when I thought all hope was lost, I got an interview, then a second "peer interview". I was called and offered the job. I had to jump through a few more hoops like a 4 hour physical and tests and then finally on November 29th, I had a 8.5 hour orientation at St. E's. I am now a breastfeeding peer helper.

Eventually I will be a 20 hour part time employee. Right now I am pretty much full time and going through a lot of training. I am really proud that I have a job that I can be proud of. I can't wait to help a mom feed her new baby and hopefully make positive impact in the lives of the woman I talk to.